Since October of last year, so much has happened to your family.  The transfer we were all so excited and anxious about was successful!  We had positive pregnancy tests and a good BETA number that continued to double as it should.  Then, on one Friday afternoon I started to feel different and had tiny twinges of discomfort in my lower abdomen.  Later that evening I knew something had changed with the pregnancy.  I rested in bed and called our nurse, Heidi.  She instructed me to stay on bed rest for the weekend and to continue all medications.  Late that evening I knew in my heart the pregnancy was over.  I knew and all I could think about was your dads.  How was I going to tell them?

The next day came and I was feeling better.  The signs of pregnancy loss had diminished but I continued to stay on bed rest.  On Sunday, everything changed again and I went to the emergency room where they performed a BETA test along with an ultrasound.  Sadly, both tests confirmed what I already knew in my heart.  This pregnancy was over.

Of course this left me with a terrible empty feeling.  I couldn't reach out to your dads because they lived so far away.  Also, I wasn't sure if they would blame me for the loss.  I was very worried they would be upset with me.  My worries were subdued after multiple emails from them.

They decided to take a month off, since it was holiday season before deciding if they should try again for a sibling.  If they decided yes, it would be a completely different process then the transfer in October 2012.  They would need a new egg donor.  This meant finding her and working out a contract, which inevitably put me, the gestational surrogate, "on hold". 

I was extremely excited when I learned in 2013 they were searching for their new egg donor!  We were hopeful for a summer transfer!

And that brings us to today...

Alexandre...
I watch you grow up through all the pictures and videos your dads email to me.  I am amazed at how quickly you've grown and so proud of you!  You appear to be a very bright, young man!  I believe you will be a big brother very soon!

We, the egg donor and I, have started the process for our July transfer.  We should know early August if this transfer is positive!